All The Things

Hello!
So, yesterday (6/29) I went to the dentist. Now, this isn't a normal dentist. I was kicked off my mom's insurance when I turn 19 (which was back in May) and have been uninsured ever since. So the dentist I went to was at a free clinic (which was held in Badger High School).
I got up at 5am and left as soon as my mom's boyfriend was ready. We got there around 5:30am and stood in line for a good 2 hours. Once we finally got to the point of filling out paperwork and given a number (I was 509!), I got my teeth checked to see what needed to be done. All that dentist told me was that I needed to get them cleaned and that I should be lucky, because my teeth have nothing wrong with them.
After that, I was led down a hall and put into another group. I sat there for about 45 minutes, but all I could think about was how the gymnasium looked like a scene from a pandemic movie. It was crazy!
Finally, after about 3 hours of waiting my number (119) was called. I went over to the available dentist and all I could think was FINALLY, so she went about and did her thing. At the end of it, she put this flouride 'varnish' on my teeth, which I have never had in my mouth before, and I despise it. It kind of tastes like melons, but feels like dried out chapstick in your mouth. THEN she told me the worst news of all "please refrain from eating anything for at least an hour, and if you have to drink something, drink something cold." And I just...I didn't even know what to do.
By the time I got out to my car which was all the way on the other side of the building, it was 10am and I hadn't eaten anything yet that day. I was starving.
But yeah, that was pretty much my day yesterday. That and after whatever I did that afternoon/night, I passed out at 6pm and didn't wake up until 530am, which brings me to today!
My mom, her boyfriend, my sister, her boyfriend, and I all went to Milwaukee to visit the Harley Davidson museum. We got there around 9:30am and only spent like, an hour inside. There wasn't a whole lot to it, but it was pretty cool. My mom did get mad at me though, because I wouldn't get on a motorcycle (which is all explained HERE).
After that, we went to the Milwaukee Public Market, which was DELICIOUS. But that's kind of it. A lot happened, but at the same time, not much happened.
Now I'm off to right the explanation on motorcycles! (I'll link it to this post)
BYE!
~Summer xx

So, it finally happened.

There is a huge part of me that I have not told about 98% of the people that I talk to/consider to be my friends and I'm about to tell all of you, so I would really appreciate no judgement.

In the eighth grade, I started cutting. After I had told my first boyfriend my sophomore year of high school, I promised him I would stop, and then we broke up and I couldn't help it.
I still do it, but it's not nearly as often, and most of the scars have faded away, but there are still some fairly visible ones. I usually tend to take it out on my right thigh and left wrist (I'm right-handed)
Now, besides my then boyfriend (who is now a friend), I have told about...7 people. A, D, G, S, L, O, and someone that I'm forgetting. O had told her family who reported it to the office at school, I couldn't trust her anymore. S said I did it for the attention, and I didn't feel comfortable around her anymore. A was very surprised, but didn't say much to me. D, L, and G seemed to care, but have never really said much about it to me. And then there's my friend, H. I have never told her, but she saw the scars and did the one thing that I have always wanted one of my friends to do: she said "what's that, on your leg?" She was pointing at the scars.
I had always wanted a friend of mine to ask me about it or say something, and she did it. But I froze. I didn't know what to say, because I wasn't expecting her to see them or even say anything. So I said the first thing that came to my mind and said "Oh, it's nothing. Don't worry about it." And she dropped it. Didn't say another word.
What she doesn't know, is that that meant the world to me. That someone I have never even told had noticed and said something to me. I have only known her for around 2 years, and she seemed to care the most.
Now I don't know if my other friends are just scared to ask, or just don't want to know. But I don't even know how to talk to them about it.
There's so much more to it than they could ever even imagine, and I want them to ask me about it, but I have no idea what to say. Or even what I would say if they did bring it up.
You guys don't have to be worried. I won't do anything too stupid. But if you want to talk to me or have any questions, feel free to comment or email.
~ Summer xx

Rant Time!

So, I don't know about you guys, but I seriously cannot stand my friends sometimes.
There are a couple of different stories about 'friends' down below. Y'all should let me know if I'm just overreacting or something is up with them.

1)
One of my very good friends agreed to be my 'personal trainer' for when we work out together, but whenever I ask her to work-out with me, there's always some sort of excuse and all that goes through my head is: "why did you agree to do this with me if you're never gonna actually do it"
Does that make me a bad person?? I don't really think so, but whatevs I guess.

2)
Some other friends of mine claim that I'm a super good friend and fun to be around, but whenever I ask them to do something, they make up lame excuses to avoid doing so. Once, they even told me that they were too tired and were going to sleep and I happened across facebook posts of them being at another person's house. Why couldn't they just tell me no instead of lying to me? Another thing one of them does, is just straight up ignore me and act like they never saw I said something to them. The best part? Whenever I ask them any question, I ask it on facebook and I can tell that they've seen it.

3)
Another friend of mine that I've just recently started hanging out with again likes to try to bully me to get her way, and I'm absolutely tired of it.  I don't even know what I do or say to her about it. I'm so tired of her acting like that though.

4)
This is probably going to be the last one: this last friend likes to be a complete bitch to me about every goddamn thing that happens. It even gets down to whose car is better. She always insists we take mine, but every single goddamn time we do, she talks about how her car is better. And I'm seriously at that point where I just want to slap her so hard her great-grandchildren will feel it.

Sorry, rant over, I just really had to get a lot of that off my chest.
Also, my only really good friends are 2 girls I met on Tumblr and my sims xD

Most Recent Music Obsession

Hello~
In my first post, I talked about how I am super obsessed with music. Well, here are the lyrics that I have been obsessed with for the last couple of days.

From One Direction's "Over Again"

If you’re pretending from the start like this, 

With a tight grip, then my kiss 

Can mend your broken heart 

I might miss everything you said to me 

And I can lend you broken parts 

That might fit like this 

And I will give you all my heart 

So we can start it all over again 

I'll post some more things later!

~ Summer xx

A Little About Myself...

Hello!
My name is Summer, and I created this blog to just post random stuff about my life and be an angsty teenager. I would like to tell you all a little about myself though. So here it goes:
- I am 19 years old and a college Sophomore
- Music is a huge part of my life, being an ex-Band geek and all, and some of the genres/bands/artists I like to listen to are as follows:
   - show-tunes (Anything Goes, Happy Days, Chicago, and Rent to name a few)
   - Rock/Indie (Neon Trees, FOB, MCR, Goteye, Fun, etc)
   - Chart music (or whatever is on the radio)
   - Daft Punk, movie music, and much, much more
- Movies are one of the most amazing things in the entire world and I can never get enough of them (Check out my movie link to the right!)
- I don't watch a whole lot of TV except for a few select shows (The Fosters, Secret Life, Switched at Birth, Once Upon A Time, Twisted, and Glee)
- I am an in the closet Directioner
- Am a supporter of gay rights and anything else LGBTQ related
- I am very opinionated and hot-headed

If there's anything else you would like to know, comment and ask!
No need to be shy, I don't bite...hard ;)

Bye!
~ Summer xx