So, it finally happened.

There is a huge part of me that I have not told about 98% of the people that I talk to/consider to be my friends and I'm about to tell all of you, so I would really appreciate no judgement.

In the eighth grade, I started cutting. After I had told my first boyfriend my sophomore year of high school, I promised him I would stop, and then we broke up and I couldn't help it.
I still do it, but it's not nearly as often, and most of the scars have faded away, but there are still some fairly visible ones. I usually tend to take it out on my right thigh and left wrist (I'm right-handed)
Now, besides my then boyfriend (who is now a friend), I have told about...7 people. A, D, G, S, L, O, and someone that I'm forgetting. O had told her family who reported it to the office at school, I couldn't trust her anymore. S said I did it for the attention, and I didn't feel comfortable around her anymore. A was very surprised, but didn't say much to me. D, L, and G seemed to care, but have never really said much about it to me. And then there's my friend, H. I have never told her, but she saw the scars and did the one thing that I have always wanted one of my friends to do: she said "what's that, on your leg?" She was pointing at the scars.
I had always wanted a friend of mine to ask me about it or say something, and she did it. But I froze. I didn't know what to say, because I wasn't expecting her to see them or even say anything. So I said the first thing that came to my mind and said "Oh, it's nothing. Don't worry about it." And she dropped it. Didn't say another word.
What she doesn't know, is that that meant the world to me. That someone I have never even told had noticed and said something to me. I have only known her for around 2 years, and she seemed to care the most.
Now I don't know if my other friends are just scared to ask, or just don't want to know. But I don't even know how to talk to them about it.
There's so much more to it than they could ever even imagine, and I want them to ask me about it, but I have no idea what to say. Or even what I would say if they did bring it up.
You guys don't have to be worried. I won't do anything too stupid. But if you want to talk to me or have any questions, feel free to comment or email.
~ Summer xx